Well it has been some time since I last posted to this blog. Truth be told I forgot I had it and it wasn't until recently that it dawned on me that I did have it. Doesn't matter either way, I haven't had TIME to write. Even now I should be doing something else but I'm not.
I have to keep reminding myself of my life mantra 'everything happens for a reason'. Whether you like the reason or not, things seem to happen on their own agenda and we just play along. In the past 8 months I have lived through several significant changes. I had another baby (Arthur! bringing the total to 3), bought a house, renovated said house (partially), signed up for life insurance (again), been on the wackiest financial roller coaster I dare be on (do I have a job, or is that too something I dream about?), transfered my children to a new school (not my choice..thank you busing boundries! NOT) and finally I have watched my kids grow up, albeit too quickly.
Although things do happen for a reason, my question is timing. Why does things happen WHEN they happen. I know, I know, that too has a reason. Frankly everything can be explained away on some level. If I hadn't gotten pregnant again (and no it wasn't planned) then my husband wouldn't have taken the time off (paternity leave) and basically got his life back on track. I feel like I've been hanging on for dear sweet life and I can't say I am enjoying it too much. Sure it is great that the house is now ours (although ours is really his on paper) and we are taking steps to secure our future I still feel windblown and wiped out. My current focus is on my kids, the two older ones being transfered to a new school has been more traumatic for me than for them. They are thrilled that they get to take the bus. I am happier as the bus is safer than me driving in the crap weather we are sure to get this winter. My youngest, Arthur, well he and I need to get out and do some bonding things. The trick is now, finding the funds and getting approval from the CFO (the husband).
I want to work, I like to work but I want to work at something that I find challenging, interesting and exercises my creative mind. I am finding that this isn't always easy to do. The course my life is currently on doesn't afford me the luxury of delving into this.
As with all things, I am going to wrap it up here, not because I really want to but because I need to.
Until time permits.
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